At The Bottom Of My Psyche

*
There are moments
where I feel that I have
tapped into something bigger
something more than just
my personal feelings

As though
at the bottom of my own emotions
exists a door

I swim right down to the bottom of my psyche
down into the universal ocean of emotion
that is surging beneath.

Everything ever felt
exists here

and it pours through me
I am its conduit
aware and
empty
I feel
it all

I thrash my way to the surface
up away from that huge
encompassing ocean

breathless and overwhelmed
I emerge to float upon the surface

staring up with gratitude
at the light
above

*

- Susannah Bec 2010

A Hole In my Persona

You poked a hole in my persona

fragile and brittle it disintegrated

into your careless hands and fell

in tattered threads to the floor

You swept up the little tiny pieces

with your big hard bristled brush

collecting each and every fragment

that had hidden my true identity

I stood there, vulnerable and exposed

I was shining, bare faced and naked

With no mask to shield you from my light

you covered your eyes and looked away

- Susannah Bec 2010

Revisited - Tiny Green Shoots

Waking dreams
t r i c k l e
down my spine
I shiver in anticipation
as the light grows around me

It makes no sense
my intellect can not hold
this slippery thing that slides
away from my grasping mind.

My heart welcomes the onslaught
open - willing - filled to the brim

my cup
o v e r f l o w s

and I spill myself

soaking into the rich red earth

I water the seeds
scattered so long ago.

One by one
tiny green shoots
break the ground around my feet
quickly spiralling upward toward the encompassing light.

- Susannah Bec 2010

A Thousand and One Places

It slides from my hands this slippery thing called now

my attention a thousand and one places but here

the moment, so easily missed

*

Rein in those horses of thought

galloping free over the vast open plains of my mind

Let me mount just one sturdy steed to lead the herd

steady, strong and responsive

every nuance felt

*

We breathe in time and move as one

toward the watering hole

where we will drink

*